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Height: 5' 7 1/2" Weight: 155 pounds Ribcage: 32" Measurements: 36-30-38 Left breast measures: 9" Right breast measures: Just under 9" Bust size: Very
unfull, soft, deflated saggy,
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It seems like I have waited a whole lifetime for this surgery. I have wanted bigger boobs and lips for as long as I can remember (since I was 13 for the boobs, and since I was 15 for the lips). I have had to put off the surgery many, many times. I was actually supposed to have my surgery last year but problems arose and set it back. I am now FINALLY ready to get it done!!!! By the end of this year, January being the latest. I absolutely can not wait!!!! I am so happy and excited words can not express!!!! I'm not sure when I will schedule my appointment with the surgeon for personal reasons, but I will let you all know when I do) When I do see my surgeon, I'm going to DEFINITELY tell him how confused I am about what implants I want and the size I want to go with!!! I have NO idea what implants I want!!! So, I'm definitely looking forward to getting his advice!!
I am going very big with my boobs and lips. I am absolutely OBSESSED with HUGE boobs. I think they are so gorgeous it is not even funny! I'm talking about the sizes that a lot of strippers sport, and also the 'big bust' porn stars. Sizes like that are so attractive to me. I also love big, full, pouty lips. I want my boobs really big, full, round, wide, firm, a lot of projection and very fake looking. I want them to be totally filled out TO THE MAX. I am looking for a lot of firmness as well-NOT hard, and not soft, but FIRM (i.e like a overfilled beachball!! LOL!!) I am hoping that my boobs will be lifted somewhat too. I have high hopes that they will be since I am getting such large implants, and I'm getting my creases lowered. I probably should get a lift but am not going to get one for fear of the scars.
I want my lips very full, pouty, fat, swollen and to have that bee-stung, fake look. I want my lips to SCREAM COLLAGEN!!!!! I totally have no idea how many cc's of Collagen I'll need to get my lips as big as I want them, though. That will be left up to the surgeon! Thinking about what type and size of implants I want is making me absolutely looney!!!! I'm telling you, I am about to lose my mind!!!!! EVERY SINGLE DAY I go back and forth about what implants I want. Some days I'm sure that I want the Becker Expanders (half saline, half silicone, can be filled to 1200cc), and then other days I'm not so sure. I know that TONS of women have silicone, but I'm just not that comfortable with it and don't know if I want it in my body. And then other days I'm sure that I want the Mcghan Tissue Expanders, which can be filled to 1200cc as well. And then other days I'm not so sure! LOL!
Here's the real deal though, and this is making me pull my hair out: the money is what's stopping me from getting what I IDEALLY want. If I had the money, OR if I could finance all of what I want, then this is what I'd get: the 1200cc Mcghan tissue expanders, then after those are ready to be replaced, I'd move on to custom made implants. I have no idea how much the expanders cost (I'll find out for sure at my appt), but the customs cost from $950-1000 EACH and remember that you have to buy *3*!!!!!!! Tell me that's not ridiculous!!!! There's no way in hell that I can save up that much money-it would take me my whole lifetime, seriously. BUT, if I could just get a loan for like $8,000 or something (I'm only GUESSTIMATING that ALL of that will come to 8 grand, maybe less if I'm lucky, maybe more if I'm not), then I can most definitely afford to pay monthly payments. And I don't mind paying on my boobs for years and years to come, AS LONG AS I GET MY HUGE BOOBIES!!!!!! If I can finance all of that, then peaches 'n' cream, that's the route I want to go. I know that I want to go as big as I possibly can without getting TOO huge to work on my feet. I can't get so huge that my work will be offended by the size of my boobs, and then they end up firing me. I can definitely see that happening (I've had many many nightmares about getting fired because of the size of my boobs).
I was starting to think that my only option was to get the Mcghan 850's overfilled to 1000cc or so, but I know beyond the shadow of a doubt, that I would NOT be happy with that size. I don't want to be just BIG, I want to be HUGE!!!! And then I started thinking that maybe I would just immediately jump into custom made implants-1200cc overfilled to 1500cc, but that's a BIG jump and A HELLUV a lot of stretching all at once!!! So, seriously thinking to myself, the expanders and then the custom implants would be the safest and the best way to get me HUGE. The expanders will do the job of GRADUALLY stretching out my skin, instead of stretching me out all at once. It'll save me a lot of pain and suffering!! And then the custom implants will do the trick of getting me even BIGGER and making me the solid huge size that I want to be!! I definitely want to run this by the surgeon and get his advice and see what he thinks about all of this. I can't wait to FINALLY go and see him!!!!
EVERYONE asks me why I want to go so large with my boobs....the reason is because I am absolutely in love with the look of very huge implants. I think it is simply amazing and so damn gorgeous. I am doing this surgery FOR MYSELF AND MYSELF ALONE. I have no interest in becoming a stripper or a porn star. I'd love to model sometime in my life, but nothing freaky or x-rated, just regular modeling. I'm not going big to get attention either. I wont mind the attention because I'm already used to being stared at. I'm simply doing this for myself, because *I* want to and because I love the look.
What better reason is that?
My boobs are so unfull and saggy right now that I don't feel comfortable wearing shirts that require no bra. I HAVE to wear a bra, otherwise you can CLEARLY see that my nips are pointing SOUTH. It is SO embarrassing. NO ONE knows that I'm a small 36D, everyone thinks that I'm a VERY large 36D/small 36DD. I pad my bra beyond recognition!!! I stuff my bra with socks, underwear, tissue, bra inserts, whatever my hands grab, it's shoved in my bra!!!! LOL!!! But I'm SO tired of doing that! I go through this SAME regimen EVERY single day, and it takes me about 10-15 minutes, because you have to stuff it just right, so nothing is showing, and you have to smooth out all the lumps. If anyone sees JUST one lump, their immediate thought is going to be 'STUFFED!'
So, you have to make sure it's PERFECT.
I'm SO sick and damn tired of going through that. I stuff my bra RIDICULOUSLY, and then grab a shirt that's X-small, even though I'm a size Large!! You can't even imagine how many shirts I've ripped because of how tiny they are on me!!! LOL!! And then I run around outside, periodically looking down to make sure that nothing is poking out. GOD KNOWS the worst of the worst is when you're walking around like you're hot stuff, totally showing off your rack, and as you pass by a store, you happen to look through the window and you see something white poking out of the top of your low-cut shirt-you look down horrified, and you realize that you've been struttin your stuff around town, totally thinking you're all that, with TISSUE STICKING OUT OF YOUR SHIRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*HIGH PITCHED SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!*
OH GOD, and then
with my lips-that's a WHOLE OTHER BALL GAME!!!! EVERY SINGLE
FRIGGIN'
day I draw on my lip liner WAY outside of my real lip line (almost to
where
a man's mustache would be on top!!!! And then just below my
bottom
lip line) YES, I draw my lipliner on RIDICULOUSLY!!!
So, I go out, and EVERYONE thinks that I'm this SUPER hot, busty, full-lipped, pouty babe, when in reality I'm just a SUPER hot (hee hee), VERY non-busty-in fact VERY much deflated, kind of full-lipped, UN-pouty, babe (hee hee, I know, I'm conceited!) I have tricked SO many people!!!!! The day when I can actually grab a shirt, throw it on over my head WITHOUT even having to stuff my bra first, and glob on some lipgloss-WITHOUT having to enlarge my lips by using lipliner, and NATURALLY (well, you know what I mean) have BIG boobs and lips without having to go through a tiring regimen-----IS THE DAY I WILL BE IN HEAVEN!!!!!!!!
I want to be very top-heavy (I LOVE this look), and super busty, where I'll scream IMPLANTS everytime I walk in a room. Where my boobs will enter a room first. Where even if I'm wearing a huge man's shirt, you'll still be able to see that I have 2 HUGE BEACHBALLS ON MY CHEST!!!!! Where I'll actually be able to use my boobs as arm rests!!!! Where I'll actually be able to suck on my own nipples if I want to (sorry, that was kinda gross but I couldn't resist:o)!!!!!!!!) Where the only way I can see my belly is if I lift up my boobs.
My mommy has agreed
to co-sign for me when I apply for financing!!!! That is SO great
because I do not have established credit, and I have not been at my job
for 6 months. BUT, she has not-so-good credit:o(. It's not BAD,
but
it's not good either:o(. It's just so-so. She told me that
I should ask my dad to co-sign for me-YA RIGHT!!! HA! I
might
as well open up a lemonade stand and hope to earn $8,000 by the time I
die by selling
$.25 drinks!
Seriously, I cannot see my dad co-signing for me on something that he
is
SO opposed to. He thinks that 'I'm foolish for wanting this done,
and that I'm only going through a phase and I will soon grow out of
this
shallow, vain immaturity'-and I quote. *sigh*. My papa has better
credit than my mama, but I have high hopes that even with my mom's
semi-sh***y
credit, I'll still be accepted for a loan!!!!!!! *KEEPING MY
FINGERS
CROSSED*
On to the horrid before pictures...............*covering my eyes*
My
lips now.....
How
I want my lips to look.....
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How
I want my boobs to look.....
I am hoping that my personal experience will help any other women who want to go large. It was very difficult for me to find REAL personal stories of women who went big, that is why I want to tell my story, and also to let people know WHY I am doing this. Not all women want humungous boobs just so they can attract men or get attention, or make money off of them, or so they can pose naked in men's Magazines. SOME women-such as me-want enormous implants because *I* happen to love the look, and want to be more satisfied with my body. I am truly doing this for myself, not for anyone else, and because I'm doing it for myself, and because this is *my* decision, I think that will bring happiness alone. If I can be of any help to anyone, please feel free to e-mail me:o). Please keep in touch to join me on my journey.
